Monday, August 18, 2008

Winds of Change

Its been a very good day, I wouldn't go so far as to say that yesterday ended a chapter in my life, but it does very much feel as though today has opened up a whole new chapter.

First off, the boys are back!! I was just about in tears at the airport. I got there a bit early and their flight was delayed about 40 minutes. I bought a book of Sudoku to work on while I waited and that was fun.

They were very happy to see me, I kept eyeing Tristan though because for like the first 10 minutes he looked really happy but really emotional. He never cried but his eyes were welled up a bit the whole time. I missed them so much!

They proceeded to talk non-stop literally from the moment I picked them up until they went to bed at 7:30 lol. It was awesome!

I got to tell them some really good news when I picked them up, and its news that is from today and I am about to share with all of you as well. Momentarily.

In March/April of 2006 My wife flew down to Phoenix and I came home to Pullman. The plan for me was to work a couple of months, save and then move down to phoenix. That plan soon changed. Then things were kind of up in the air and then things turned towards divorce. Once that happened I made a conscious decision that it would be in the boys best interests if I lived at home during the duration of my divorce so I could better provide stability during such a trying time.

That is exactly what I did, although there were several times I questioned it and several times I couldn't wait anymore, I pressed on. Trials Set and then cancelled at the last minute were the real killers, I even had started making plans at times related to these. 3 Trials later...

Suffice to say, I've been living at home for 2 1/2 years. My divorce finalized only 3 months ago and as of this day I officially have an apartment of my own! YaY!

Ive always lived with a parent, a roommate or a wife. I've been raising the boys by myself for a long time now, but I've never been 100% responsible for EVERYTHING in their life until now. I am cutting things so close that my rent plus all of my bills combined is equal to the amount of pay I get from SEL in a month, the only money I will have for fun, clothes, extras, sports, birthdays, christmas, activities, and so on, is Child Support.

I can do this, and I will do this. But so far I am scared to death at the thought of it.

Yesterday wasn't the end of a chapter, it was a happy end to the book of my life so far. Now its time for the sequel. Not just a new chapter, a whole new plot with new characters and settings.

Peace Out All, I love all my friends and family for all the support I've ever recieved, emotional or otherwise.

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