There are several different parts of my life, and without really thinking about it I have been kind of attempting to make each part come together all at once. As if my divorce is some kind of Zero Hour I seem to be attempting to work out my divorce, my living situation, my debt situation, and the part of my life I seem to be forcing the most, my love life. I think its just the way my mind works, at times I can procrastinate with the best of them, while other times I take on as much as I can. Most of it is working out, but the whole "love life" thing is not. I want it to, and I try to tell myself I am not in a hurry, but I act like I am. I tell myself there is no rush, I have plenty of time to live life, get married and have more children. That is what I want, the part of me that makes me feel rushed is that clock of mine ticking down to 30. 2 more years, Ill be the ripe young age of 30, Ill have two wonderful boys, ages 9 and 7. That is another thing that makes me feel rushed, I never wanted so much difference between the ages of my children, but if I am to have more, it can't be helped at this point. I have 2 amazing boys, I could be a single happy father for the rest of my life. I just want so much more, I do want love, and I esspecially want more children. I fall in love with every baby I see now, in my heart and soul I know I am meant to have more children, and I know in that respect that I am ready to as well. I just have to remind myself that this is something that can not be rushed. I do truly believe I have found that person though, after a recent conversation with a friend of mine about her, I am more convinced than ever. Only time will tell though, as long as I can have the strength to give the situation the time it needs. Things on the trial front, my trial is in 12 more days. Nicole has yet to appeal the judges recent decision. Perhaps all of her threats were just made out of spite? We'll have to wait and see. I filed my taxes, I had prepped them all in advance and just had to enter in my W2 when I got it. Ill be saving most of the money, spending a little, using what I need to to move and buy some furniture and "new apartment essentials". My intention is to have my own apartment by March, we'll see how well that works out. Maybe once its all set up I can invite some people over for dinner or something to break it in. I am trying to put together a list of things I will need, furniture and such. -Jason EDIT (2/1/2008, 1:30PM): So after locking my keys in the car for most of the morning yesterday and missing work, I doubled my efforts to get to work this morning. I wish I had just slept in. I was nearly to Pullman when the guy in front of me drives into a White-Out, suddenly his lights completely dissapear , we are already going between 30-35, but with the Drifts and the White-Out coming up I am slowing down, then when his lights dissapear I assume it is just thicker and harder to see through than I originally thought. I was wrong, the reason his lights dissapeared is because the White-Out completely blinded him and his right tires hit a drift and he spun out, he was in the middle of the road facing directly to my right when suddenly his headlights come into view with absolutly no time for me to do much. I probably started to slide into him at around 20MPH, and I tried to curve to the right in front of him but we collided and then I ran into a huge drift. Fortunatly no one was hurt, though my car looks pretty F-ed up. The damage to his vehicle didn't seem nearly as bad, but I definitly got him pretty good. The officer hopefully won't write a citation, my insurance thinks I will definitly be made responsible for the accident. The other driver and I couldn't figure it out and kind of hoped it would be rendered a 'no fault' accident. My claims guy said that a judge would probably just say I should have slowed down to like 4-5MPH when I saw the whiteout, but my response would be that any highway where I should be driving at 4-5 MPH to be safe should be closed, as this one should have been the last 2 days. Anyway, getting a rental on Monday, don't need to go anywhere for the weekend so figured I would wait until then. That is when I will get the estimates too and figure out if we can get it fixed (which is what I want) or if they have to total it, in which case I will probably end up with 3-4k after my loan is paid off, plus my tax refund money, then I can figure out the apartment thing and get a car I probably don't want at the same time. So hopefully it isn't totaled.
What a weekend, its definitly time for a blog. Some of this will be review from my last couple bulletin's. First off, my best friend for the last 18 years bought a Gaming Hobby Store in Coeur d'Alene Idaho about 6 months ago. Things have been going somewhat rough since then, the business hasn't been doing as well as expected, his father died of a heart attack at the age of 50 just a few months ago, this combined with the stresses involved in having an infant and a 2 year old.. well, we'll just say that 2007 was rough for him. Just 13 days into the new year Russ got a call telling him that his store, his second home, his families livlihood, was on fire with smoke billowing out of it. The building housed several apartments and 4 businesses (one of which wasn't in use I believe), it was nearly 100 years old and in dis-repair. The investigation as to the cause of the fire is ongoing, they do believe they have identified the general location where the fire began. I drove up to help russ as soon as I heard, his store was still burning when I arrived. Everyone is pretty much taken with shock at the moment. I went with him to get some legal advice on the subject and I can't tell you just how surreal of a feeling it is to sit in an attourney's waiting room reading a newspaper where the headline event is the very event you are in the law office to discuss. He and his family seem to be doing well, I'll be checking in with him often. Strange timing, but while we were taking a look at his building during the daylight earlier today I got a call from my lawyer Beth. The timing of the call made me feel uneasy about it, but it was definitly good news. My original trial was set for sometime in August (like the 10th or so I believe), about a week prior to that trial Nicole's new lawyer attempted to seperate Jadon from the case on the grounds that there were legal remedies to attend to before addressing Common Law (De Facto Parent status). This ended up delaying the original trial, fortunatly the motion to seperate Jadon from the case was denied. My next trial date was set for the week of Thanksgiving in November. It was to be on a Monday, and literally on the friday beforehand a hearing addressing new information based on a similar case that finished just a few weeks prior was put forth. This new information allowed them to attempt to seperate Jadon from the case again, the new trial was cancelled and a hearing was set to determine if Jadon would still be involved in the case or not the following Monday. Before I continue I will give some information as to what it would mean to "Seperate" Jadon from the case. Essentially it would be removing my ability to have any right to him at all. When determining custody of Tristan, Jadon would not be considered as his Mother would be the only eligible parent. Legally it could destroy my case, though I would have still had a strong chance to get Tristan. Technically this meant that Nicole would immediatly have moved Jadon down to Phoenix, seperating our boys. In my opinion she has crossed a line, fully willing to hurt our children in her attempts to win. The boys would never be split up though, if I lost this new hearing we had already made arrangements for a deal that involved keeping the boys in school for the rest of this school year up here with me, and then they would move to Phoenix while I would follow and 50/50 custody would be shared. But I was only considering this to prevent the horrid act of Nicole seperating our children, the divorce is more than enough, I feel that anything more would be devestating. The hearing was held on the Monday following Thanksgiving and our Judge "reserved" his decision, which means I pretty much didnt sleep for the week following, suspecting it could come at any moment and that Jadon could be taken away from me. My lawyer gave us equal chances to win or lose this hearing. Finally after 6 weeks or so of waiting we have heard a decision. The Judge has sided with me! My lawyer and I both believe this move has weekend Nicole's case, and in turn, strengthened my own. Winning my Children in court is more likely than ever before. Just so everyone know, my court date is coming up (again), february 12th-13th. Well, the snow storm is pretty bad outside right now (I couldnt see anything, I couldnt even tell where the sides of the road were most of the time or IF I was sliding or what, it was the most brutal drive Ive ever had), so I am going to get some sleep as I will have to drive in the aftermath tommarow morning for work. Despite the bad news Ive mentioned, I am very very psyched about the good news.
It is so nice having them back in town, things feel back to normal, or as normal as they are going to get before I get my own place. I am still not 100% sure on where to move once the divorce is over, I would like to just keep Jadon in School until the end of the year, which would only be 3 1/2 - 4 more months. Then move during the summertime, I am on a plan to have enough money set aside for the move by June. The target is 3k. Ive considered the possability of moving to the Spokane/CDA area, moving into Pullman, moving at least as close to Pullman as Palouse or Colton. Secretly, I've also considered the possability of moving back west, to like Bothell or Snohomish type areas, or even up/down to Vancouver WA or Bellingham. Not sure, feels more like something for the future. I want to settle down and get the boys into a home of our own and let this whole Divorce thing settle down. Its kind of up in the air.
So my engine light has been on for about 10 days or so now, finally got it into the shop today. Had to go in early before work and drop it off, it hasn't snowed for a couple days, but there is a ton of it still on the ground and the wind had drifted it pretty bad over the road in a couple places. We hit the first one without seeing it, my mom spun out right away, I would have made it but since she was in front of me I had to stop, took me awhile toget started again, the snow was so high it would have been falling inside my car if I opened the door. Took us awhile, but we got to Pullman safe. They found out what they 'think' is wrong with it, so I go and pick it up, engine light comes back on before I leave their parking lot, so I am taking it back in on Monday. They said its just a sensor either malfunctioning or broken. They thought they fixed it but they said if it comes back on that the part may need to be replaced, and its apparently a couple hundred dollar part. If it doesnt need to be replaced then this only cost me $90. Its almost Thursday! Im going up to CDA early on Saturday and playing some games and watching some football (GO HAWKS!), Im going to spend the night at my friends place, probably celebrate the new year since we didn't get an opprotunity on new years eve. So, yes, there will probably be some drinking :-). Then on Sunday the boys fly into Spokane Airport at around 1pm (unless there is a Delay) and then we head down to my house for a late Christmas. I have so much standup comedy on my PC now, its awesome. I LOVE IT. Both Audio and Video. I got Fight Club back, Nicole really wanted Beauty and the Beast, which I LOVE but just dont watch enough. She freakin 'forgot' her camera on Christmas, so there are NO christmas pictures... Check out this video entitled "What Girl's need to know about their geek Boyfriend" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GG5x7-waI38 Its pretty damn funny. -J