Saturday, November 10, 2007


So I did not make it to the gym on Friday as I was hoping. With Dad's weekend, Basketball and Football all happening all the roads around Beasley were blocked off.

I ended up going to the daycare early and speaking with the boy's teachers about some things and the upcoming trial.

A week ago I felt like this whole process was taking forever, but all this week each day has ticked by and now there are only 9 days left until the first day of my Divorce Trial. I really don't know what to expect, or how to feel.

As of about right now it has been 20 months since my 'wife' and I were together. We are quickly approaching the 2 year mark, which sounds huge considering she and I were only together for 3 1/2 years.

Nicole and I never would have hung out if we didn't work together. She, my roommate Waylon and myself formed a pretty tight nit team. I did have a bit of a crush on her, and that is what led up to us dating ofcourse. Mistakes were made and she got pregnant right away though and thinking back my reaction was odd.

I mean, you are with your first girlfriend, you barely know her, she gets pregnant a month after you have been together (which means one of the first times was the charm ). I was so excited, I just want to go back in time and punch myself in the head or something. I mean, I LOVE my kids and I wouldn't change this about my life at all. But I definitly would wish I hadn't been such a freakin dumb ass about it. No freaking worries in the world even though I just got my 18 year old girlfriend pregnant.

I was obviously an Adult when I got Nicole pregnent, but I didn't know what responsability was yet. Not even close. I just watched the movie Knocked up and its interesting to watch the main characters grow into their responsabilties.

God I love being a Father so much, and I have learned so much about it and I know there is so much more growth there waiting for me. I really hope to have more kids, at least 2 more, but I feel like the timing is off. I feel like right now is the time I would want to have a 3rd child, but when I finally do start dating someone, I probably would want to date her for at least 6-12 months before making a decision of that magnitude with her. I am still in my Mid-Late twenties though, so in that regard I feel like I have plenty of time, Ill just have to find a girl a bit younger than me for the math to work out .

Anyway, last night we had our weekly movie night, the boys both picked Flight of the Navigator (amazing movie, I bought it at Blockbuster awhile back). Then tonight was our game night, we tried 2 of the new games Jadon got for his birthday and things went pretty well.

Today was weird though, Jadon had a scratch bleeding on his Shin and I had him sitting up on the counter in the bathroom while I cleaned it with Hydrogen Peroxide. As I am drying off his leg to put a Bandaid on he suddenly goes Limp, I didnt understand at first, but it turns out he feinted. Gosh my heart was racing before I knew what had happened and I am still a bit worried about it now. I am not sure if it was the blood or the stinging or what.

I gave the boys haircuts today, I think they turned out well. I posted a side by side comparison in my MySpace Photos which also includes a new photo of the barber .

I did a bunch of cleaning today and I would have been doing laundry but I managed to get it all finished before the weekend!

Fatherland is getting better and better, I am about 2/3 of the way through it now.

Anyway, thats enough for now. Just as a final note, I am super excited about the prospect of seeing this show on December 2nd, but keeping the name/type of show a secret becomes more difficult. I was never very good with suprises. 

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